It’s been a while since I posted – and I’m here to tell you why.
I’ve always felt like life is trying to put me through the ringer, or test my strength. I feel like there is always something happening, whether it be in my family or in my professional life or whatever the case may be – and I’ve always pushed through the storm, only to find myself in another one. Eventually I stopped taking care of my own needs, giving myself a break, or even just simply relaxing for more than a minute. Ten years of living this way finally caught up with me and it didn’t end well.
I found myself depressed. I was bored and unhappy with everything. I didn’t want to talk to people or even get out of bed. I was question everything about my life. Needless to say, I was a mess. I was having a really tough time with life and it was affecting pretty much every aspect of my life – my ability to be a good mom, my relationship, my work life… I just wasn’t in a good place mentally or emotionally.
It’s only been about a week since the lowest part of all of this and I still have a long way to go – but what I realized is: it’s OK to take a break – I don’t always have to be strong, I don’t always have to be worry and planning for the next thing. I don’t have to do what everybody else wants me to do! I can do whatever makes ME happy.
And let me tell you – this was the best thing I could ever realize. So much pressure to always be on point was taking a toll on me. So I took a break from planning, from worrying, and from thinking. Luckily I had a class to help distract me – but I didn’t really talk to anybody, I didn’t think about any of the stresses in my life, and I stayed away from social media. One day at a time – I’m feeling a little bit better.
Sometimes, something so small such as taking a break from life and going MIA is often times necessary to regroup and figure out how to move forward. It is OK to give a little less if it means you feel even just a little bit better.
That’s all I’ve got for today – but I’ll be back in action! Happy Living!